THECASUALTY! - Even though saving you sends me to heaven.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Pinch and a punch.

First dream of the month:

I dreamt about me and Jung Yunho having a dance battle.
I was first and I was like all freestyle and popping here and there
and in the end he won...of course.

<3

I did today what I said I'd do and I did it...
this is what this year's going to be all about.
I don't know what to pick though,
am I a city or country person?
because I city way too much.
but I love Teardrop island to death
(if that's considered as country...).

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Tuesday, January 27, 2009

lalala.

After being with Blogdrive for 5 (6th year this year) years, Ann has finally....

MOVED.

My blog-life, starting from now, would be in secret. If you really want to read, you gotta ask. And I would probably not give it to you LOL :P ~~I kid, of course.~~

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Friday, January 23, 2009

Do you know why it is that I blink?

I hope something isn't wrong with Blogdrive? I can't even go convert my 'new' blog layout so...T_T it's 3:24am and I need to start sleeping early, haha. Now I really really really really REALLY want to watch Innocent Love you know WHY? Because it's from the same makers from LAST FRIENDS. So that means it'll be good because I love Last Friends so much right now. I think I've developed a girl-crush for Ruka, LOL. She's actually very pretty too. ~~BE BACK TO EDIT!~~

edit: 3:06am, temporary new layout & "the world is officially out to get me."

Every single day for the past week, there has at least one sign telling me that I need to get off my butt and lose weight/exercise. I weighed myself the other day and I'm.. I'm HEAVIER. uh, hell to the no I won't reveal my weight but Josh and I were talking about our sleeping patterns and when I told him my particular sleeping pattern, he said that it wasn't healthy...then a few minutes later asked me if I worked out/excercised and I didn't reply and just went off MSN ^_______^" that's when I realised, "OKAY ANN! YOU REALLY REALLY NEED TO START BEING HEALTHY FROM NOW ON." Because yes, I know I came up with a diet in the beginning of the month (or was it last week...) but I have completely broken it and being chubby is really bothering me now especially when I look at myself. If you disagree with me being 'chubby' I will...SHOW YOU MY THIGHS. Nikoy thinks it's disgusting, haha. I will do something about this...pronto. What I'm going to have to do first is SLEEP EARLY. Since these 'senior years' are most likely going to have so many nights up, studying...I should get alot of sleep before that starts to happen. Even though I do that when I'm actually backtracking....but whatever. I will sleep early, I will eat breakfast, I will eat small meals and I will NOT eat after 6pm. Junsu, I'm with you on this.

What's new with Ann: Starting from tonight, I've had virus-scanning problems and it's bugging me but I'm trying to fix it myself, I'm thinking of writing a Jae birthday one-shot (like I've always wanted) because I think I'm in heart with him all over again and I realised that's the thing with me and him. I..fall all over and over again and I always ask myself after, "I don't know what made me think that.." (in a good way) but now, I know it's just my reaction to when I haven't seen him in a while and I've been too immersed in either Yong or Hae LOL. This reminds me of the conversation last Sunday with me and Ahra and it was SO girltalktalkingaboutboys except it was about Jae and it was really serious until we realised...that something didn't feel right LMAO. Oh how I wish I had someone to really talk about in girl talk <3

I think I'll go to sleep now, hopefully for the last time at THIS hour.
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(continued from title):
It's because it's closest feeling I can get to dreaming when I'm awake and in my dreams...There's only you.

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Thursday, January 22, 2009

Without You - The TRAX

I finished watching Last Friends last night at 12:45-ish (and heh, I really had a cup of ramen on the table which I didn't finish~) and even though I HATED Ryo Nikishido's character in the drama...when I was trying to sleep, I COULDN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED and it made me really really sad. No one should ever go through a thing like Michiru did and so I guess....it was a good thing? ARGH, I hate you Sousuke I wish you weren't like that. Bittersweet ending though~<3 One of my favourite dramas ever and now I just need to finish Tokyo Tower 8D (Mokomichi~hohoho)

okay, so A YEAR AGO I would really be into fanfics and all, but this time it's jdramas this, jdramas that. Everytime I'd go out with my mother we'd always buy like 3 dramas at the most and I would always finish them in like 2 days haha. I had Binbo Danshi and Last Friends on my 'to get' list and on Tuesday I crossed out Last Friends..^^ Next time I'm aiming for Gokusen or Innocent Love!!!! I was gonna get IL but my mum was like, "That looks like it's for teenagers." PFSH! HOW DOES IT. She went towards Gokusen at one stage (but oh, she doesn't know that Gokusen is full with lots and lots of IKEMEN! HOHOHOHO) but Seasons 1-3 was 40$ T_____T

I can imagine my end-of-the-year entry to start like, "so I started 2009 with playing video games with my brother for two days since I had no laptop/computer, went down to the shops (?) with him to buy credit, Kelly coming over at the last-minute to fix my computer and I thank him SO much for that, going out to the city by myself for two-three days just to find presents for Alan's party, watching SEUNGRI'S STRONG BABY, Super Junior-ing only for an entire week, skipping all hardcore only ONCE and it hurt to walk for a week..."

I said I was going to write my 2008 end of year entry but it is WAY too late and it doesn't matter anymore. At least I know in my heart...what 2008 was to me? ^_^"

Little things that I would like to do myself this year:
Try all different types of teas.
Progress on my photoshop skills ^______^ make graphics
and stay active at YGBB, YGSECRET & SK forums.
Get over 2000 posts on soompi.
Buy more boxes and candles.
Dye my hair.

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Wednesday, January 21, 2009

A prisoner of love~

For snow...

I wasn't that sad but in the picture it sure looks like it...^^ and it kind of looks like it's snowing but it's actually rain because it suddenly started raining at like 4pm when I started to continue watching more of LAST FRIENDS. I'm doing all these photo entries because SJ's cy entries inspires me, LOL. I'm not a good photographer as Siwon though...he's so...PRO?! haha.

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Saturday, January 17, 2009

I hate coffee.

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WHY? WHY DIDN'T I MAKE YOU OFFICIAL ON THE 12TH?! T_T like you said, every 12th of the month is special right? And I thought that day would be special too and that's why I was considering it, so WHY didn't I make you official? I was thinking of JYH. But heck, if I like you..then I like you. I said I was going to do it if you go back to your singing and piano-playing cuteness, but THIS was even better. Baby, I like you even more...I didn't know you could do that T___T and what makes me feel even worse right now is that you even made the song your own and added, "cause I love you, I love you..." and pointed at me at the very end...T_T T_T T_T I'm sorry Ri....T_T the 12th was perfect and was my chance.....but I didn't do anything about it. I'm five days late....

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First of all, happy 24th/25th (?) birthday to SJ's 'Racoon' Kangin <33333 I forgot that his birthday was TODAY. I knew it was sometime in January and it was after Ming's but wait, that makes more sense -bangsheadondesk- it's funny, because nowadays I've been liking Kangin too (hence that cute dream I had of him *O*~) and it's his birthday after all <3 good timing...^^ I hope he has the greatest birthday today :) ~~I think I'll make him something later.~~ AND ISN'T IT THE SUPERSHOW (ENCORE? I'm not sure) IN NANJING TODAY AND TOMORROW?! :D

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I'm angry. Coffee really does stunt your growth. If I wanted to grow taller, why the JOHNTESH did I drink coffee so much last year? because it tastes nice with so much sugar and gives me happy highs? I don't care, I really regret it T_T I'm never going to drink coffee...ever. -bangsheadondesk- so stupid...

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Like a year ago today, I had another weird dream. It had something to do with this werewolf and I was looking after him and I always felt like he was going to eat me (?) but all he wanted was a cookie, and so I gave him one or two. There was this rule where I wasn't allowed to spoil him but it was all I kept doing (but not intentionally...) and I remember him telling me that he was here/was a werewolf because his sister is here (?) and I was afraid to ask but I asked, "Am I going to have to meet your sister?" I don't know remember what else, I think he fell in love with me (?!) and whenever I wanted to get out of the house, he would transport to the place where I was and bring me my favourite food...lol. Then the last part of my dream, all of my friends were living in this one mansion together?!?!?! but before we were inside the mansion, we were at this cake stall and all of the girls were choosing which cake they wanted but I remember the first two people that were there was Phillip and Novia and I followed them and when they picked one, it was really really expensive, like 30$ for a cake?! I know, and so I said I'm gonna chip in but I didn't have my wallet so I just went home. Half of the 'group'/whoever was at the house was upstairs and half was downstairs waiting for "the cake". And I remember I was looking outside the window, and I saw two cars that looked the same and they were both light green VW Beetles? One was Alan's and one was Novia's...then when they were inside, I was waiting at the top of the stairs and I was literally on the floor and my arm was reaching out to the people coming up the stairs with the cake and they gave it to me and the whole situation was like .. I don't know, life and death? I put the cake, which WASN'T EVEN CAKE but one slice of apple pie, on the table where everyone could surround it and everyone sat on their seats and Novia sat next to me and I asked her how much it was and she said 16$ and told me how she wasted money on it...and so I took out 8$ out of my wallet and gave it to her? then it was the time for everyone to have a little bit of the ~~cake~~ pie and Novia was the first to have a bit and when she did she took a reaaaaaaaaaally big bite like almost half of it was GONE and then she handed it over to me and so I had like a little bit of the crust and when everyone saw they all yelled me and was like "OMG ANN THERE'S ALMOST NOTHING LEFT!" and I'm like, "it wasn't me!!!!!!" then I handed it over to the next person which was Japhet and he pretended to eat the rest of the slice and then I woke up there T_T

I think I'll get a new layout.
I hate coffee so much right now I'm going to...to burn my coffee stash.

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Friday, January 16, 2009

I wish I could pause time.

I'm trying not to think that school starts AFTER next week, that on Monday I have to start thinking, "I'm starting school NEXT week...." then the next Monday, it's going to be "I'm starting school THIS week.." T-T everything goes too fast. I feel like I didn't do much. I feel like there's still 4-5 weeks left of holidays but there isn't T_________T a year ago PURPLE LINE was only released and soon it's going to be Shinee's one year anniversary?! (end of March?) If I could, I would stay updated with them but I can't, three groups is alot already...LOL. I still have so much backtracking to do...

Click here to know what happened to me a year ago today.

What's still the same:
I still hate shopping with my mother.
It's still freaking hot these days.
I'm still trying to save up my birthday/christmas money (from last year).
I'm still trying to figure out ways to make my 'legs' thinner, LOL.
I still like Boys II Men's '4 Seasons of Loneliness' <3

What's changed:
I don't sleep at 10am anymore.
I don't watch Daria at 6 in the morning anymore.
I haven't been to Parra in almost a YEAR.
I wait 2-3 weeks after a song release to download.
I don't talk to Jebby at 5 in the morning on MSN (WHERE IS HE THESE DAYS ANYWAY?!?!)

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Today I absolutely nothing but SJSJSJ and go grocery shopping. Because I love 13 and I needed to buy post-its. Shindonghee's photoshopped photographs still makes me want make pictures like him, lol. I WANT TO MAKE PICTURES LIKE HIM T_T T_T so instead of an entry, I can just post a picture and readers can just...tell what I did that day instead of reading all this hehe :3

I want Boys In City/Tokyo Season 2.

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Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Geegeegeegeebabybabybaby.

1:31pm.
My legs hurt now, I fell asleep on the couch at 8-ish last night but only woke up half an hour ago. I had like a million dreams, I don't now where to start. I don't know if I'm going to sleep PROPERLY tonight? My diet is not going to work today since I didn't eat breakfast. I haven't eaten anything yet. I still haven't watched SR's Sunday perf.
I hope I can finish Super Show-ing tonight since there's two more shows at Nanjing this weekend. ASDIOYWERFEWREWIRWE.

To do:
~~Strong Baby Inkigayo perf.~~
~~Watch/load more Shanghai SS fancams & pictures~~
Backtrack as much SJ as possible.
Backtrack DB -- reach at least 1690.

When I slept on the couch last night, I woke up for a few seconds cos NK and my mum were still up and they were gonna go to bed so I moved to my bed and I remember having a dream about Super Show? Siwon centre stage...(and thank God he was wearing a SS shirt cos when I was watching him yesterday he was getting bullied by KangHae+Hyuk and he ended up chasing them half-naked, hohoho.) I remember Hangeng was in my dream, I'm not sure what he was doing, I don't remember...BUT I remember playing around with Kangin? If we look at this realistically, usually it would be HIM bullying me playfully, but in my dream it was ME bullying HIM O_O and we were in car? and he was being kid-cute? AEGYO? CUTE KANGIN?! ROFL wow <3

then when I woke up this ~~morning~~ afternoon, I remember having a dream about being back at the Phillippines and my mum was nagging me about something and I don't know why but I was like, "EJ's room?!" I think she wanted me to put something into EJ's room and then I remember going into the kitchen and picking out which broom/walis I liked best (ROFL?) and then I just went into EJ's room where everybody else was, and when I was about to step into the room, I saw Gangx2 and she was still the same as the last time I saw her? which was weird because I remembered that Uncle Judito told me that she was heaps taller and was chubbier like me, but in my dream, she wasn't. I greeted her with, "hihi! :D" then I remember being disappointed in my dream because the 'trip' to Philippines was so soon and I haven't changed much yet because in real life, when I go back there I wanted to look different but in my dream, the only change I was thinking of was that, my hair isn't straight anymore..lol. I remember sitting next to Pamela and we were reading travel books...O_O

THEN, the next part of my dream. Me and my family were in a bus, and NK and Pamela were sitting next to each other and they kept mucking around and my brother was calling her a "faggot." and she called him one back but in her accent? theeeeeeen we went off the bus, and we were at this festival thing and someone I don't remember who, but I was waiting for him/her to finish playing some game where alot of other people were playing to 'win' something...and I remember being told to step back because I wasn't one of the players/players that have already played but I didn't, LOL. I don't know what happened after that...

MY NEXT DREAM, was omg. O_O It was crossed Gossip Girl, crossed PROPOSAL DAISAKUSEN. O_O O_O O_O all of a sudden, I had to find my 'little brother' and it WASN'T Nikki...we had to find him cos he ran away with a girl? well, that was when we last saw him and we were all worried and me and SOMEONE I don't remember who, was looking for him and we had a time limit.

But along the way we came across this baseball field and it was the 'little brother's school's team' and the aim was to ask some of the kids there if they know him and if they know where he might be...but we got carried away and ended up playing baseball and were fielders but in the end our team won and the TEAM wasn't even kids, it was this group of hot people...LOL boys and girls and the main guy/captain was or IS Hiro Mizushima?!?!

and the person I was with was like, "he's not even hot..." and then I looked at this cardboard box (or like, a cookie box?) with his face on it, and I'm like, "not in pictures." and then Hiro was like, "let's take a picture to celebrate!" and me and the person who I was with was protesting and trying to make excuses so that we won't take a picture because we remembered that if they take a picture, we wouldn't be able to find the 'little brother' and we'll be sucked into the camera flash O_O and we'll go back into the future without making the 'little brother' happy...so they didn't...and me and the person I was with went to find him again, and so we look inside of this out of no where closet (?) and he was in there by himself, pigging out on food?! but in a lonely sort of way, lol. Me and my friend were sooooo relieved T_T

I remember pinching ototo's (little brother -_-) cheeks and smiling, and then all of a sudden the hot group of people came in after us and it was like me and my friend were trying to hide something but they didn't notice at all and didn't see ototo cos there was a half-wall? so I don't know, at the end we all just kind of hung out at the closet and they brought food and LOL my arm was around Mizu aaaaand I remember passing cake to ototo in secret? and I would look at my friend and we'd smile at each other...and it was like a movie-ending and that was it O_O haha.
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My legs hurt so much I can't even walk properly, no joke. I don't like this at all :(

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Monday, January 12, 2009

Stay In Love - BoA.

argh, excercise is not that easy :( I rather bike it than anything else, I don't like jump-roping!!! I will never forget Ahra's birthday in year 9 where Victor came with his bike and it was exactly my size and I kept hogging it all day <3 my legs hurt for a week and I, I LOVED IT *O* that 'good' pain feeling, haha. I want a bike so much...T_T I was so close to getting one last Christmas cos I went shopping with my mother and she was randomly like, "let's get your bike!" so we looked at KMART? T_T nothing good there and it was expensive so that didn't work out. There was actually a bike store nearby but we didn't get time to go in there anymore T_____T

Lately, I've been planning out my day...^^ and starting today, I'm on (another) new diet which is no sugar, more water, breakfast everyday, small lunch and dinner and nothing after 6pm! and I'm going to try and 'jump rope' for 45 minutes+ everyday and mygad, I hope I'll see changes?! I tried to get more sleep last night and so I took a hot shower, went to bed at 11, ALMOST fell asleep to my 'sleep' playlist on my mp3 until I heard my mum talk on the phone really really really LOUD outside the bathroom which totally woke me up and it pissed me off cos I didn't sleep until 3am and I was supposed to wake up at 6/have at least 7-8 hours of sleep. Usually if I fall asleep naturally I have dreams but last night/this morning, I HAD NO DREAM T_____T I like my dreams..sometimes.

and now Nikoy's friend is over and he's filo and my mum and his mum are friends and I saw his older brother at their year 6 farewell and he reminds me of someone I can't remember who? He was okay looking, I think? -hides-

I like Donghae again. I'm watching Shanghai fancams from November and you know how Hae is during Super Show XD BESIDES THE SKINSHIP/FANSERVICE, HAHA. <3 dorky, cute, and sexydancinginawifebeateriyfiuwerew. And you know who else I like again?! KIBUM. He looked so happy and he was joining in alot even if the members forced him to dance solo XPPPP lol, I missed him so much..^^ and he showed skin during Man In Love too <3 I always like it when he raps^^ I hope he gets more lines this year in the album <3333 I used to think that if I was in a group like SJ, I'd be similiar to Kibum...or Heechul, LOL. Wait, that's complete opposite. Heenim and I kind of like the same things and we're both AB so we can be BOTH quiet and loud and would probably randomly break into 'dance' and Kibum, we share the same feelings. But anyway, I'm really anticipating the 3rd. My first time with SJ13 promotions, I was with SuPy last year and I'm going to follow 13 this year :)

Should I make SR official? :( cos today would be perfect since it's the 12th. Wait no, I won't. I WON'T. GD won't be happy if he finds out, LOL. I shall make him official if he turns back to cute piano-playing Seungri and that MNET performance doesn't count because he wasn't really playing the piano and there was a bed on the stage, lol. (but his vocals were...*O*O*O*O*O*)

Why do I always tear whenever I watch a guy singing a sad/romantic song while playing piano? RI, DO YOU KNOW YOU DO THAT TO ME?! (then again, so does Junsu, Yoochun, Jae, YB, Jonghyun....) anyway, I'm not sure. I think I'll just leave it.

Jaeyonghae.

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Saturday, January 10, 2009

Good morning sunshine~

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CURRENTS
Current Mood: Hungry and I need to pee and it's like 5:01am right now and I'm supposed to be sleeping and I don't want my parents to know? haha.
Current Music: Strong Baby - Seungri, ROFL. When I first heard this, I unconciously couldn't stop playing it and last month it toned down but now after the MV and promotions I really really like it? Hanju is win xP
Current Taste: Nothing.
Current Hair: My hair is out and nice.
Current Annoyance: How I have no headphones.
Current Smell: Britney Spears' 'Midnight Fantasy' lmao. I have her perfumes because I got the 'collection' for Christmas (and I really really like the blue one 'Curious' I think? XD) and anyway, I put a little bit on cos I forgot what it smelt like, haha.
Current thing I ought to be doing: SLEEPING.
Current Desktop Picture: Kwon leader during the hiphop stage on the 29th.
Current Favorite Group: BBDBSJ.
Current Book: Nothing.
Current DVD In Player: The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants, HAHA. I am also a sucker for friendship movies.
Current Color Of Toenails: Black...like my soul.
Current Refreshment: !!!
Current Worry: that I'll be spending my whole holidays BACKTRACKING.
Current Crush: Ji + Ri.

LAST PERSON
You Touched: omg I don't remember x_x NK probably.
You Talked to: my mother.
"Ann, is NK still awake?"
"mm"
does that count?
You Hugged: JOSH I THINK? on Tuesday
You Instant messaged: Brynn, at like 2 hours ago on MSN.
You Yelled At: I don't remember.
You Had A Crush On: Yuta Hiraoka, lol. x_x
Who Broke Your Heart: Seungri with that almost-love scene in his MV and he's only 18!? but I forgive him because his live performance of was wow, lol. Charisma <3 and that dance break~*O*

FAVORITE
Food: Romantic PASTA! SERIOUSLY. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE PASTA. AND SINIGANG.
Drinks: Pearl milk tea :D
Colors: That olive-ish colour <3
Shoes: my olive-ish shoes.
Candy: sour things.
Animal: lol giraffes? dolphins amuse me.
TV Show: So I'm currently WAITING for Gossip Girl to continue on normal TV but like, I don't think they're showing it anymore? either that or I'm blind. I loved the O.C and I think I'll love GG too.
Movie: There's this old movie that I used to love and it's called 'Now and Then' and it's one of those friendship movies and I used to like it sooooooo much but I haven't watched it in ages and THAT was the movie where I learnt that, "kissing makes you pregnant."
Dance: LOL SMP. Whatever tickles my fancy~
Song: I have alot -_- current favourite is Epik High's Butterfly Effect though...^^
Vegetable: POTATOES AND PEAS :D (weird combo.)
Fruit: mango, lychee, banana, strawberry~

BE BACK TO EDIT SRSLY, IT'S 5:20AM NOW. I FEEL PARANOID -_- ^ there's so much more to that survey but I can't be bothered anymore, lol.

edit: 12:24pm. I was Seungri-ing, probably, the WHOLE day yesterday? It took so long to load the MV in HQ (and so I was playing it while it loaded...and ;DSAJFKGSDRFWE?) then after that I backtracked and watched the first performance etc etc. Saw promo pics. AND THOSE WERE HIS ABS AFTER ALL?! wow. I want to touch them. j/kj/k XD anyway, yesterday I was thinking to myself while watching the MV, "I hope I don't dream about this...DX" and I ended up having one..but it wasn't sexy and it was PG-rated..^^ I was living at this place with these two guys and one of them was Ri. The only thing I remember is him eating bubblegum and asking me if I wanted some and so I take it and I say thank you and then AFTER I say thank you I cup (?) his face in my hands and kiss him on the lips?!?!?!?! @_@ LIKE A PECK?!?! and LOL I swear it was the musical drama and his expression was like this:

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except those hands would be mine...LOL. In my dream, it was like in a really different world? and I remember something else about missing a bus..I don't know, maybe it's a sign...hmm. BUT ANYWAY. WTH, WHY'D I DREAM ABOUT CUTE SR? I WANT NEW SR, HOHOHO~! because um, that would be interesting XDDDDDD far out baby, what are you doing to me?

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