I'm going to go cry now...lol. I don't like that whole maknae-feeling-up-girl-from-LastFarewellMV scene, LOL. Seungri and his older women T_T I guess. I didn't even know he had abs, he's sooooo skinny!? WAS THAT EVEN HIM? goodness..T_T T_T T_T I love LOVE GD's part though. But Seungri...T_T you really are grown up now huh? <3
I wonder if the chlorine killed the chemicals in my hair. No, my 'straight' hair already died the first day I came back, lol. Damn hot showers. -mutters- stupid, stupid stupid T_T
First week of 2009 (even if it didn't feel like 2009, but still 2008?) has gone and now I'm starting to SLOWLY accept that it..is 2009? -____- I don't want to though. I felt so unprepared at the end of last year. I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO DO MY END OF THE YEAR ENTRY T_T T_T T_T but even if I did I wouldn't be in the mood cos I had the most minicooper New Years Eve DAY at home and at night I did absolutely nothing except finish First Kiss and it was like a normal night? how is it that possible, especially on NYE? It's like I'm nothing without computer...lol. Can't believe Wonderbang and Kouhaku was on that time and I couldn't do anything about it.
Last month when I couldn't sleep, I was thinking what my 'love' life would be like right now since, my love life right now is pretty much BBSK OR Jaejiri? and I've distanced away from Hae and I really know want to know how he's doing and all, but like we're both so busy with our lives we can't see each other much? LOL. I'm starting to slowly get back to writing and Jaeyonghaeri are my main focuses <3 Jae is #1, main star, the guy until the very end, the FIRST love! hohoho. Jiyong...IS LIKE MY WEAKNESS. He would be the lover, LOL try not to think of it in a bad way. He's the 'second' guy in the story and the things that he does always makes me feel these feelings that I've..never felt before? XD and since he is a flaming Leo, we have that love/hate relationship. Seungri would be the best friend, lol. SAGGXSAGG RELATIONSHIPS FTW! that person who I have so much in common with, that person who has the same feelings/outlook on life as I do. Donghae? childhood friend? LOL. Since my one-shot with him was based on all my cute childhood experiences and if I was ever in a relationship, I'd want to take care of my boyfriend and that would be Hae <3
I'll be back to edit, but no promises.
.
"Fishy to dinosaur, fishy to dinosaur - over." "I don't understand why I am...A DINOSAUR? WHY AM I SUCH A FIERCE ANIMAL? DO YOU REALISE WHAT KIND OF ANIMAL I AM, DONGHAE? I EAT PEOPLE. PEOPLE, DONGHAE! DO I LOOK LIKE A CANNIBAL TO YOU? DO I LOOK LIKE A DANGEROUS PREDATOR FROM THE JURASSIC ERA WHO HAS BEEN EXTINCT FOR A BILLION YEARS AND ALL THAT'S LEFT FROM THEM NOW IS THEIR FOSSILS?!" "You still don't know why you're a dinosaur? Over." "Can't I be a like...a penguin instead?" "You forgot to say over." "And in a way penguins eat fishes and I don't like you anymore and uh, over." "Fine fine." "You forgot to say over."
why am I still stressing? why am I still stressing? why am I still stressing? why am I still stressing?
.
well, I went out today but I only half-did what I was supposed to do...so I have to go out tomorrow again, but I don't wanna go by myself T_T so depressing~ I have lots more things to literally do and to top it all off, you know that weird feeling in your throat which signals that you're ABOUT to get sick? a cold, maybe? I have that. I wish my mum still had Mondays as her day off but it's changed to Tue/Weds. T_T
and you know what keeps happening to me whenever I'm at city?.. I keep dropping things (not on purposely) and guys always picks it up...T_T except that they're not good-looking sigh. When I was coming out of Kinu, I dropped a coin on the floor near the escalators and this guy bent down and picked it up for me and last last time I was waiting outside the restrooms and was fanning myself with this brochure and then I tucked it into this other brochure then it slipped out and I was about to get it but then this guy who was walking past picked it up before I did.
oh, dream update:
I dreamt about YB sleeping. He was in this room and he was in his bed, and he kept twisting and turning and I was peeking in through the door watching him? LOLOL I sound like a creep but seriously that's what I dreamt about. I don't get it though, I was watching the Wonderbang opening from earlier this week and I was thinking, "hey, YB looks good there..." and so I guess that must be it? hm, I wonder if he was twisting and turning because he felt he was being watched? XD heheheh. pfsh, I would never do THAT!
My 'end of year' entry is coming up..soon..lol. Belated, I know, who the heck cares.
[ramble] You know what this end of year thing feels like to me? okay, this might not make sense, but it either feels like my boyfriend just broke up with me when I least expect it, and I'm just sitting here, saying, pleading, "wait...there's still so much things I have to tell you..so much things I want you to know! this isn't over yet, for me..." (jumps out of boat and jumps onto Noah and kisses him like I've never kissed him before) who the johntesh is Noah you say? no, SCRATCH THAT.
It feels like I'm SUPER late on a DIY assignment and I'm rushing, getting everything done. AND I'M SUPER STRESSING. No, seriously I am. Because I still need to go out and buy things for this assignment and the due date is on Tuesday and I still need to research and RESEARCH ON WHAT EXACTLY I NEED TO BUY (for this assignment) and I can't possibly go out tomorrow and buy it TOMORROW? so I'm left with Monday. Now the problem is, WTF AM I GOING TO WEAR ON TUES?! so now, I have this DIY assignment and I have soooo much things to do and research and now on Tuesday, there's this day where I have to .. wear something...formal?!?!?! AND I DON'T USUALLY WEAR FORMAL THINGS? and usually, because I am who I am, when I'm stuck on something and I really need help, but I hate asking for help so I DON'T ask for help even though I really really really need it and I just end up not asking anyone OR at the last minute, ask someone? I don't know, what should I do?! T_____T Maybe I should just go by myself?!?! nevermind. I found a solution. I asked for help and even though it's 2:30am, I am DEFINITELY going out to shop tomorrow. I have slipped a post-it in Nikoy's Playstation just in case my alarm doesn't wake me up tomorrow morning.
YOSSSSH~! I BELIEVE IN MYSELF! I can do this alone! I've gone there a million times with either family or friend, I've travelled there by myself .. WHO SAYS I CAN'T DO BOTH? I'm 16 aren't I?!?! Annie fighting!!! GANBATTE. okay I feel somewhat organised now. [/endoframble]
I am currently addicted to strawberry jam on toast and Foolish Love. thank you so much Kelly for coming today yesterday, help fix ugly fish! I've missed you ugly fish. I..I love you stupid, ugly new monitor.
that reminds me, I've probably said this a MILLION times (seems like it) but I had another dream about my house being broken into again. Seriously, is that my new phobia or something? COS IT FREAKS ME OUT. And in my dream, it's always focused on MY COMPUTER. And last night's dream? they went through the front door and stole my goshdamn monitor.
Take me out of Doomside, I BEG OF YOU. -bloghopper gives Ann weird looks-
since I was computer-deprived for almost a week now, I am deathly afraid of how many pages I need to backtrack. But still, I'm gonna do it out of love. I have ugly fish, no time and slow internet <3
I think I'll start from scratch on the 1st. Yes, I am ABANDONING YOU BLOGDRIVE! and starting afresh.
You know what two words I've been seeing ALOT nowadays? "No regrets." I've made so many regrets this year...T_____T and after finishing Proposal Daikokusen, I'm wondering; if I could time-slip and change my past, would I be a different person? If I could actually do that, I would! and would point and wink like Yamapi and be like, "HALLELUJAH CHANCE~!" The person you love getting married storylines make me really sad ;~;. but really, I would want to change some things. I think...I'd actually be a better person.
. edit:3:49pm. I am WILLING to stay on the internet/computer during the beginning and end of Gayo, willing to stay up late until the uploaded performances, willing to witness the music threads to explode. WHY? because I have absolutely NOTHING to do tonight, nothing is on TV, I don't want to finish First Kiss yet, I don't sleep until 5 in the morning and I will most likely have limited time on the computer tomorrow since my mum's home AAAAAND if I do all this, I don't have to backtrack as much and won't feel like I missed out the live. The only thing that's working against me is ... freaking laptop curfew and my internet connection. I WANT MY COMPUTER BAAAAAAAACK GAH. Christmas holidays isn't the same with ugly fish. sigh, I hope things turn out well. T__T
HIRAOKA YUTA, WHY DON'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. YOU'RE EVERYWHERE T______T YOU'RE MAKING ME LIKE YOUUUUUUUU. OKAY. -calms down- you know that cute doctor I fell for in First Kiss? (sidfyiuwerew) this morning I was looking him up, trying to find picture threads on him and I found out that he was that hot guy with glasses, Yamapi's best friend Mikio in Proposal Daisakusen?!?!?!?! HOW CAN I NOT NOTICE THAT?! but when I watched more again, it REALLY WAS HIM. FSDUYRIUWEFWEFWRWE. That...guy who drives his girlfriend around and kisses her so dreamily....T_T T_T T_T T_T and 10 minutes ago, I looked him up again and I FOUND OUT THAT - HE'S STARRING IN SUBARU. SUBARU!!!!!! THAT UPCOMING MOVIE WHERE THE MAIN THEME IS THSK'S BOLERO. GAAAAAAAAAAAH. He is in a movie with Go Ara and would probably meet Toho T_T T_T oh man, I have to watch that movie.
I need to make use of my day today, I have to T___T slept at 6:45 after watching episodes 2-6 of First Kiss and gah, that cute doctor reminds me so much of CSG/Taemin. I want to have one of those scenes where I'm in his car and I can't breathe properly because I'm sick and he leans over and IT LOOKS LIKE he's leaning over to kiss but instead, he says, "Let me check your pulse." -- and that whole time, I didn't know what to think but my heart was beating so fast and I was afraid that he could tell T_____T afyuidsfywe. um, yes anyway, search for photoshop CD begins now~~! Reason? 5th anniversary and I can't believe I haven't made something on PS. THAT IS MY SPECIALTY YOU KNOW? brb.
OMFGSHOFUWEIRUWEYEWIOMFGOMFGOMFOMFOMGSOSHHHH. Everyone's asleep and I can't stop SILENTLY SCREAMING. BBSK FIRST JOINT STAGE ON THE 29TH. They announced it today. A PERFORMANCE CALLED 'STAR WARS'?! Star Wars? BB vs DB?! "It is also confirmed that Big Bang TaeYang and Dong Bang Shin Ki Xiah JunSu will also be having a showdown of musical composition." (cr: sookyeong @ wordpress & jaejin@dbsglj.)
^UDSYFIUWEYIRUYEWIRYEWIFEW -DIESAMILLIONTIMES- okay, Jae had me straight at I love you. BBSK 'DREAM BOYS'?!?!?! and SR. OMG SR. OMG DSIUYFIWEYRIUWE. OMG MIN TOO. OMG. MIN, PLS DON'T DO THAT TO ME PLEASE T_T T_T OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. OMG. OMG/?!?!??! OMG. OMG. OMG. BIGBANGSHINKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! BBSKBBSKBBSKBBSKBBSK! SDIFUIOWUEIROEWREWREW.
okay, I'll stop now - sorry for the fangirling. BBSK FTW. My wish is coming true on the 29th.
okay, so I think....4 things are like crossed off on my wishlist? XD. We bought 3 more jdramas (this one with Aya Ueto, Operation Love with Yamapi and First Kiss with the girl from HYD, lol.), I got more moolah (and I spent some today and I still have more than $100. *O*) I bought phone accessories and and AND! *drumroll* I HAVE VERSION C <333333 it's so pretty and it's so my type talaga T_T T_T the colour theme and photos in the photobook(let) are in THESE COLOURS. SO VINTAGE AND SO SEPIA!? On the train way home, I was looking at the backstage photos or what it's called at the front, "Photostory 2008" and it has all these photos and I was smiling at the picture of HyukSu being all aegyo and I could feel that my mother was looking at me weird XD. but anyway, it's kind of like a 'recent' time-line...at the top from their recent fanmeetings during Mirotic promo, filming of KJE with Supy, MIROTIC interviews, the comeback showcase conference, behind the scenes of the MIROTIC jacket shoot, A-Nation and there's this really cute picture at the end from the Dream Concert this year with SHINEE ^_______________^ (I spy Taemin with his bowlcut!!^^) and on the other side, it's these really really really pretty individual polaroids where all the guys wrote a message/signed~~~^^ I wish I had posters though~~~~OH AND TODAY, I SAW DB'S 2009 WALL CALENDAR ON .. THE WALL? HOHOHO. But like, it's 60 bucks? T____T I realised if they have all this stuff in city, then they'd have way more stuff in KTOWN? in which I've never been too before except for once, where I have vague memories of going with my dad to pick up my mother at Stra plaza and like, probably isn't Ktown per se. kay, I'm not exactly sure what I'm saying anymore. It's okay though. I got really tempted into buying Jay Chou's Capricorn and SJ-M's 'Me' today XD AND ONE OF AYAKA'S DVD CONCERTS. Because I like her so much. OH AND OH MY GOSH, THE CD DESIGN TO VERSION C IS SO INDIE?!?!?!?! <333 It reminds me of Death Cab. You can only see a guy's (who, I think is Yunho's) hands holding a suitcase.
I cannot wait until I'm home alone and I BLAST this HIGH HIGH HIGH QUALITY ORIGINAL DONGBANG ON THE LIVING ROOM STEREO, yessirr. I wanted to get the CLEAN version of the version C cos like you know, 1 extra acoustic version of Mirotic and 'UNDER MY SKY'?!?! LOLOL, but I seriously couldn't wait for the release and I kept saying to myself, "SPEND YOUR MONEY BEFORE YOU DON'T HAVE THE CHANCE ANYMORE!!!" T_______T
I think this CD just made my year complete, you don't know how happy I am right now. Now for SBS Gayo, Kouhaku and NYE with family. <33333
On the 23rd, Big Bang's management company YG Entertainment announced that "Big Bang will continue its promotional activities for 'Sunset Glow' until the end of the year, at which point Seungri will begin his solo activities with 'Strong Baby' from the group's second album," adding that "through his solo activities, fans will be able to see a more provocative and mature Seungri that they've seen before, and not just Big Bang's magnae." (cr: halcyon_morn @ YG Big Bang Livejournal)
OH MY. OMFG. OMFG. SEUNGRI WILL BE PERFORMING STRONG BABY ON THE 29TH FOR SBS GAYO. AND WHAT IS THIS I HEAR ABOUT PIANO BATTLE BETWEEN YB AND JUNSU?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! OMG BBSK COME TO LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I will die a happy girl at the end of this year, omfg. OMFG. Seungri is THIS close into making it into my top four. He is NOT my eyecandy anymore XD. And Happy TVXQ day~~~~! according to MTV KOREA (was it? I don't remember, but they officially stated it a year ago XD. I remember thinking, what? why? O_O) TVXQ day should only be the anniversary date, but this whole representative thing is good too? haha.
I slept early last night! *O* 10:30-ish and I woke up at 10 this morning but then was bored so I fell asleep and woke up again at 1 in the afternoon. These days are so boreng if I'm not on the computer. We were gonna go shopping tonight too since everything closes at midnight, but then we just figured we're gonna go early tomorrow.
I'll edit this laterrrrrrr. edit: 11:55pm - I've started backtracking videos right? and I just finished watching the behind the scenes of the SKOOLOOKS October photoshoot and I swear...T_T SR T_T T_T <3 he kept making jokes when he was being interviewed and then later, when GD and Daesung were being interviewed by Wolly-BB-fanboy, and they were all, W: "Big Bang" all 3: "Fighting!" "Daesungie." "Fighting!" "Jiyongie!" (I think XD) "fighting! "Wolly" (again, LOL) "fighting!" and then in the background you can hear SR say, "Seungri~!" and then he comes in, stands in front of the camera and he (and the three in the background XD) say, "fighting~!" then walks away again LOL.
Then there was this one part where he was shooting with GD (G-RI<33333) Seungri was dancing/twirling to the music, then Jiyong pushes him, and Ri just started like getting really into the music and I swear he started bodyrolling a little and Jiyong, who was behind him, finally caught SR and he seriously had this 'WTF....' look on his face and looked at Ri up and down with that WTF look still on his face...LMFAO. Then when SR turns around and faces GD again, GD looks like he's saying, "There's a camera you know..." and then he points at the camera so SR looks and Jiyong pushes him away really hard because SR points/shoots at the camera (like in that wink, 'I'm so hot' kind of way) LOLOLOLOLOL. Gosh, I'm dying here. SR is love.
